MY BIRTHDAY

mah birthdays june 7th...

ma birthday party's june 8th..


7 days... HERE WE GO.

well..

back on the grind o' things..newe day new dollar.. or lack there of.. i been thinkin of maybe gettin anotha job on top of the one i have.. folks think that this promotions is a job, not by far.. makes minimal cash from an abundance of cash that is dished out and leaves a sour taste in my mouth each time i invest.. neva have i been the one to wanna make it rain in the club, ill gladly keep my dolla bills in my pocket and put em in the piggy bank when i get home (clikity clank, clikity clank)..

my birthday will be here in a week or so, nothin really major about turnin 24 cept its a year closer to 25 and thas where i needa be takin care of business to the fullest.. the cards look like they are playin up right for me, eventually ima end up mat the 60g a year job, plannin on movin into my own place, and not wit ma sis anymore... and needa get a new whip.. a lot to do in one year.. the jordan year is over... im not as excited for the birthday as bdays before, im jus happy to be alive, seein as so many of my loved ones have gone in the last couple of years.. to be around ma fam, my loved ones, and future loved ones is all that raelly matters to me.. and maybe gettin a lil lit in the process.. lol.. to think that maybe ina few years ill be married or somethin, wit a lil eric jr. on the way, i wont lie, puts a shiver in ma spine.. gotta be ready in all aspects to do that..

hmmm.. companionship...we will leave that topic fa anotha day.. jus know its definitley on my mind more lately then it has been for quite some time.. single for 3 years lol.. woooooooow..*leaves that note on the table to start up anotha day*


i still have yet to get on the travel hype.. a turnaround trip to la was the most recent finding, which in tune, was a very profitable trip.. fun with a quick result.. i aint mad at it.. (*bumpin weezy.. the carter 1*).. maybe soon enough that trip love will come my way.. i have not forgotten about my so called cruise i wanna go on.. no joke.. i got to do it!

pops is good, mommas good, rest of the family is good.. the boys are the boys, always findin somethin to get into lol.. magnum up!..sisters are good, the house is fine. we been bbqin a lot lately, the most recent one went to work hahah.. wake up jd! lol..

*random story*.. so i took a shower last week, not the first shower in foreva or nothin, but this one was funny.. im walkin out the bathroom, towel wrapped around (ladies create a vision here, haha).. as i hit the hallway, i guess the water on my feet, the lil amount that there was, found its way to the floor, so i slipped, fell, and the heel of my foot puts a hole in the wall.. the damn towel flys off, and im layin on the wooden floor lookin like a fool.. all i could do was cuss, until ma sis comes stormin out the room.. then i hada rush to the towel and wrap it back around hahahha.. damn water.. moral of the story, dry ya feet first.

thas all fa now.

and since i kno your readin this .. *hello fe*.. ;)

the interference that is running through my brain is really causing a big problem in my everyday living as of the last 2 weeks..

ive made it back from texas, sticky texas.. within spending time with my family, i didnt get much time to reflect on the events that have taken place in the last 10 days.. starting with the confirmed death of my grandmother, and the realization that after that it wont be the same for my dad or my family for that much.. pops was going thru it, as he should have.. that was his mother.. my emotions were in tune for the most part when it happened, one reason being i didnt really know her.. met her 4 times, but while it crushed my dads insides, that forced me to be affected.. times like this i wish that you could just stop working for a minute and recollect every thought.. but thus is life.

so i went to texas.. but before i went to texas.. i had to deal with home.. afta the phone call told me what had happened at the club on tuesday, i rushed up there naturally to make sure none of mine were injured..i found out it was ma kebret (i used to call her keebler..), and it got all downhill from there.. i dont wanna get too deep into it, cause it really affects me..especially since i had to call my boy and tell him his girl was shot.. be in the hospital alll night long, see the family react to that tragic news, and feel selfless to know that this would affect so many people ina negative way.. and o yea, go to texas the following day for a funeral..

texas was fun and eye opening.. i met family members i hadnt met ever, and ones i hadnt seen in a long time.. all grown up and with different aspects and mind frames.. most of the time was spent sitting outside enjoying the humidity and crazy weather, rain off and on.. with a beer and some great great food.. i gained some weight out there. good weight. i was worried about ma dad not doin well, but it seemed when we, his kids, got out there, he was fine.. i hope thats what the reason was, cause that would be fine with me.. random phone calls to check in on my extended family back home helped me stay on top of things there, which helped the transition.. but back to texas.. we spoke on childhood fun, i saw pics of my dad when he was 18, made me laugh how much we looked alike.. he laughed and laughed, didnt have much of an appetite, but drank like a fish.. i was by his side for the most part, have to make sure my dad is good..the funeral was not as easy for the family, but we all were strong.."eye on the sparrow" was a choice song sang, and that tore the church down.. and once again.. we ate.. my favorite from the trip had to be ma cousin james "cocheese" briggs.. classic storytellin wit that southern twang.. hes a great man that made the transition of death easier for everyone, especially my dad..

***special shoutout to shaka.. made those days easier to get thru witcha convo.. u are appreciated***

afta all these events, my brain is left ina clutter of thoughts.. mostly pretaining to how im gonna change some things over the next coming months.. my birthdays coming, i needa do something for that.. i feel that a change needs to come, stagnant is my approach to life right now...

all i know is my prayers are with all of those caught in the rapture of life that is death, its the coldest game and leaves its mark on everyone.. damn sure has left its mark on me.. and im affected by it, sincerley..



.. change gon come.