Friday, April 11, 2008

When it rains...

Song of the day- "Aint that a bitch" by Lil Wayne...

Here. we. go. again..

I noticed a trend happening in my life. Something drastic always seems to happen towards the beginning of every year inthe first 6 months leading up to my birthday (June 7th) that throw me for a loop, and have me back at square 1.

So its already a known fact that I moved outta my home this week, and officially spent the first night back at my parents on Wednesday. Im leaving the house around 10ish, goin to my folks house to kikit wit the extended fam for a little bit, release some stress, and of course as Im leaving I hear "dont come back too late!.. and dont chu be drinkin and drivin.. bla bla bla bla bla"..with a shake of my head I walked out the door in disgust.. Its already started... I slept in thiis full size bed for the first time in like 4 years, so used to stretching out in my good ole cali king.. this transistion is not going to be an easy one. I have plans to go to the lake this weekend and hang out with all of the loved ones, I can hear it tomorrow already..

mom: " I need you at the house all day today to do any and every small thing I ask, including just look at me so I know you aint doing anything but that..." (exaggerated...but you get the point)

me: " momma, I have plans..."

mom: "NO.. YOU DONT..." (insert argument..)

They say silence is golden at times, but me being me, and being ina situation where something is not right and affecting me, I will speak up.. so I know it will be very hard to grit my teeth and shut up for this stint in cell block 9476..*i feel a migraine coming*

My boss called me into the office on Wednesday to talk about a quick assignment. So as we talked about it and finished up the subject, she kindly inserts.." oh by the way, seeing as we just hired on the 2 new perms, and your a temp to hire, your last day of your assignment will be the 18th of this month..."

...... wait... wut?

my job is a 6 month temp to hire position, of which Ive been doing well at and had the utmost that I would get swooped up with open arms come August. I was told when I started, it would be a minimum of 6.. (1,2,3,4,5,6).. months. But out of the blue, with the sneakiest and most nonchalant way to say things, she told me Im outta here.. NEXT WEEK. a weeks notice. And the bitch gon have the nerve to sit here and talk to me like I never worked there.. "the county is a great place to work, I think you should take a few tests, you might like it here... ".

...wait....wut? *migraines here..*

SO, as of the 18th of April, barring some help from the woman who hired me, I will once again, be without steady income.. *shakes head* I spoke with Laura, the woman who hired me, and she assured me of course she didnt know about this situation, and they had nothing but great things to say about me here.. its just that the perms they hired are filling the role.. keep in mind, they hired OA's.. ima Sr. OA... 2 different Im on the short end of the stick. A woman just resigned here yesterday, I just found out..So you would think in the time of need, they wouldnt let anyone go... this bass ackward place is about to feel my wrath. I called in yesterday, on some fuck you type ish.. I didnt care.. and still dont.

7:55am (5 mins b4 start time).. me: "Hi, im not coming in today"
snaggertooth boss: "oh, well is everything alright?"
me: "yup, just not coming. bye.."

Needless to say, she should know whassup. So now, once again, im back at square 1. Frustrated, annoyed, but at the same rate, I cant let this faulter me. But the feeling of the weight of the world is on my back strong.. and I have no pain killers..

3. Today my truck overheated.. turns out one of the pipes or somethin leading to my radiator is busted, causing a healthy leak of the fluids.. felt real shitty to shut down on the way to my parents house for some lunch.. ANOTHER thing to deal with..

They say it happens in 3's.. well dammit, this 3 pointer has all but ended my career in retrospect..



LadyShay said...

::pops open umbrella::

Eb the Celeb said...

Dang lil homie... mom's got you on the tight leash... but you cant say No to mama...

Sorry about the j-o-b. You didnt really like those people anyway seeing as though you slept in your car everyday so you didnt have to talk to them during

I will pray that you get a new gig where you enjoy having lunch with coworkers.

Eb the Celeb said...

Somebody got

Now all you need is a shoutbox!

Brittany said...

You better than me. I could NEVER move back home. Good luck with that.

karrie b. said...

awwwww. things will get better my dear. more bees with honey. remember that.


JayBee said...

momma: ain't too much you can do about mama. just grin and bear it. if ya'll have a tight relationship you will be able to compromise on some things. think about how she must feel. she's just happy to have you around. once you've been there for a while, the novelty should wear off.

job: that's foul, but to demonstrate your integrity you should have continued to come to work anyway. it might not profit you anything, but at least no one would be able to scandalize your name. i know you think it's easy for me to say because my job hasn't been threatened, and on some level you'd be correct. however, your [good] name is all you have.

truck: not much you can do but get it fixed.

all this will serve to make you a stronger man.

The Flyyest said...

Sorry to hear all that but all things happen for a reason.....

God gives us signs....jus think about that!!

*Be thankful that you can go back to your parents house...some kids cant.

*Be thankful that you got a chance to work at that put your foot in the door for other oppurtunites...

*Be thankful that you have a car...some people is on the BUS... yeah its eff'd up but it all will work out for the better!

always remember.....when theres rain, "you can stand under my umbrella ella ella eh eh eh!!!!!"

PrettyBlack said...

I had to read this shit to my mom and Big Les! Les said "cinderfella is back!" Too fuckin' funny, but you know escrow is about to close and you'll be outta there in no time...Stay up! Let us know if you hit the lake...Folsom? Berryessa?

PrettyBlack said...

LadyShay ain't shit!!!! hahaha!

Miss Mika said...

Dang, that is horrible.

But what doesn't kill you makes you stronger... at least that is what they say.

With mom, there has got to be a way you can respectfully talk to her and tell her you are a grown man with your own life to live and no longer 13. It might be hard for her to adjust to, but she will come around.

I have no doubt that a great career will come for you. Chalk that up as experience :)

Car trouble is the absolute worst. I am prayerful (hate to hope) that it was a minor and inexpensive repair.

You be back to rollin in no time Mr. Swag.

i.can't.complain. said...

i need a drink !

"i'll drink to that"

here's to 1 yr. from now when u say

"im so glad that temp job let me go. if they hadn't, i would have never found this super fabulous gig that i have now"



Melody.Darlene said...

like my momma always used to say, "when it rains, it pours!" sorry about ur job... and the car situation, that SAME EXACT shit just happened to me!!

Monie said...

Damn, dude. I can feel your pain. Keep your head up. It obviously gets better. *hugs*

swag_ambassador said...

@shay- yea its rainin.. bad

@eb- stop callin me lil homie lol. we was in high school at the same time!! and i didnt mind the people, just too much gossip.,.. preciate the prayers

@brit- i didnt do it by choice lol

@karrie- preciate it luv

@jay bee- preciate it bruh.. as for momma, im the baby, she wont eva change towards me.. the job, no matta how much i dont want to, im still doin all ma work.. ima leave ona high note.. and the truck, just anotha thing.. itll all fall into place

@flyy- true dat.. im still thankful to be breathing..

@pretty- yea yea i know.. and you saw the angst in ma face at the house so you know how im feelin!

@mika- i appreciate the words of wisdom. im not really mad anymore.. more focused than anything.

@ -1- that helped. f these fools, ima b good.

@monie- thanks fa the hug.. i needed it..

@melody- its coo, ill be back.

Still_Pocahontaz said...

awwwww ::hug:: I promise it's going to be ooookay. I will keep you in my strong, remember this

"Weeping may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning"

Be Blessed

Sexxy Luv said...

I'm down for a drink can you mail me a bottle of PEPSI? NAw I'm trippin' , just trying to make you smile.

I understand where your coming from when you have people that are relying on you it's hard to let them down.

Your only hurting yourself by not going into work, it's more money in your pocket if you go, and no telling what god has in store for you, don't break this is all a test of FAITH!

Sexxy Luv said...


12kyle said...

I got the bring the cups

Sorry to hear about that, fam. Pray on it. God will see you through. I'm not just talkin' but i lived it.

Marleaux said...

Sorry to hear about all this. Wish I could refer you to something in Sac, but we don't have any properties there. They do that at my job too; hire folks, and don't even think about the temps. Then the direct hires end up being stupid... Then you have to train the direct hires, and do you know how hard it is to train a stupid person... *sigh*

How's school btw, hopefully that's going well.

swag_ambassador said...

@ Poca- i appreciate the words of wisdom lady. im keepin ma head up up up!

@sexxy- i feel you on that, no matter how much i wanna not be dilligent even in negative times my conscience wont allow it.. blame mom and dad i guess lol

@kyle- now that! pop that bottle! lol.. preciate it bruh

@marleux- shoot, its too bad ya dont.. but i appreciate the thought at least. i think ill be fine. incentive has been instilled in ma head now and i gotta focus harder

Melody.Darlene said...

this is random... but i know how much u love teedra moses (from one of ur previous blogs) and im equally obsessed! anyway, aside from my blog i write for a big urban entertainment website...

anyway, i did a piece on miss moses incorporating a recent interview she did... peep it when u get a chance!

here's the link!

Queen of My Castle said...

Awwww, babes it will get better. I have been exactly where you are except I had a son in tow. It'll get better, I promise. Just stay positive, or at least try your best to.


allienicole said...

killin me!!